fall in love again

I had posted this as a goal previously, one that I thougt I’d reached. However, now that I’ve matured and looked at that relationship from afar, I realize it wasn’t really love.

Anyways, that was a while ago, and now I’m moving on. I want to give love another shot. I don’t want to hear the word and think “fuck love!” I want to be optimistic again, and try to put the past behind me.

I think that I am one of those people who is really capable of love, but gets crushed on a lot. I know this is nothing to rush, you can’t rush a thing like this, but I want to feel it again and for real this time.

After my longtime boyfriend Cristian and I broke up in February, I was so hurt and discouraged from ever letting someone close to me again much less loving someone.

Two months pass of me being a somewhat happy but hesitant bachelorette, then I met Jake at school. When I first met him, I was instantly curious since most of the people I’m hang out with regularly, I have known for a long time. So, I worked up a friendship with him, due mostly to us having the same friends. Anyways, there came a point where I was really beginning to have an attraction towards him.

I told him that I thought he was a cool guy and basically asked him out on a date. He said yes, and within the end of that week and the next, we were a couple.

We’ve been going out for nearly three months now, and I’m officially in love with him. He’s the greatest thing to happen to me in a long time. I never thought I would be able to trust someone so easily with all of my thoughts, feelings, and secrets, but it was easy for him.
Being with him has enabled me to mature enough to the point where I feel like a much happier and better person than I ever have before. Instead of shutting all new people out of my heart and mind, I took a big risk with him. It’s paid off amazingly well.