meet my soul mate

I could talk to myself a year ago, around now I made a post saying how I want to meet my soul mate and how he’ll be awesome. I wish I could have told myself to be patient, that’d be will come, and how hes here…but then again IF I did so..maybe things wouldn’t work out like how they did. writing these seems so long ago. SO much has happen in a year, im so curious what next november will bring me…..

I think I might have found him (: Im crazy about Caden, we met through school and we have so much in common its sick. SICK. I tell you, its so accidental and our siblings say all the time how we are alike with things we do. I used to think people who felt like me were loons but really.. i couldn’t be happier.

I think i have a problem, i feel like whenever i get excited for something it won’t happen.. like a new boy… ESPECIALLY a new boy. i feel like if i get too excited its not gonna happen like god thinks im getting too anxious and thinks because im rushing into it (mentally) its not suppose to happen…or i feel like i dont deserve it? i have no idea why im like that i just feel like when good things come or i meet new people i get so excited that i want it to work so bad but then get scared because it might not… maybe pat has something to do with that since thats what has been happening for the past 6 months.. not that i blame him its my own fault i get excited too quick and then it doesnt happen.

:|

i need to be slapt lol.

where the hell are you :|

he’ll be pretty awesome.