Manage my depression

I am changing this goal from “Beat my depression” to “manage my depression”, for the simple reason of: I think that depression is a feeling (or a mix of them). It is what it is and I am not going to make it go away. I think the key is to watch myself and my emotions and manage them properly. Things have been going really well for me lately, even with work and home being kind of crazy and stressful! I have been meditating again, which helps me be mindful of the feelings I feel, instead of ignoring them and allowing them to build up and pull me under.

While I don’t think this is a goal I will be marking as complete for quite some time…I am definitely making strides at it.

Even with things being kind of crazy as of late, I am holding in there. Regular meditation has been helping me keep the depression under control. I would like to go back to the acupuncturist to have a maintenance session, but can’t afford it right now (damn, I wish insurance would cover this!). 43things has really helped as well…seeing that others are out there with problems too and that they are overcoming them….not to mention the support of people….I really appreciate it! Here’s to an excellent new year and to all of us meeting our goals!

Things have been going better as of late. I did a 4-day, apple and liquid fast last week and started meditating again. These things always help; I just get out of sync and don’t follow through with them when I need to. I went to go to a depression support group the other day, but skipped it at the last minute. I was not sure it was anonymous and being I never did it before, was not sure what to expect. I also started talking to my wife about what was going on and what we were both feeling and that always helps, so that is ok for now as well. So overall, it has been a good week. I will work to stay on track.

I have been battling this on and off (more on than off) for the last 10 years or so…maybe longer. Always think that I get it under control, but it always ends up coming back. Last positive thing I did to make things better was go get some acupuncture. That worked, but got pretty expensive and was not covered by insurance (hate those HMO’s). I am at a point now where it is really starting to affect my marriage and relationship to my wife, so I need to do something else. I found a depression support group locally that I am going to try out; we’ll see how that goes. Hopefully that will help, updates to come.