achieve enlightenment

And it’s going well. Most importantly I feel like I’m in the moment more often. I also feel like I’ve been able to let go of more thoughts of the past and future recently. One problem I have is that it isn’t a good goal to match up with ambitious “wants”. I feel that it’s strength is in that it releases you from those wants but some of them are needs and that is where it makes things difficult. If I need to earn a certain amount of money, sometimes releasing those thoughts of desire can stop me from going after those needs as much. Sounds strange I know, but the reality is I don’t feel bad about it. I might want money but I know that it’s that want that causes suffering, so releasing that want makes the suffering leave and I can work in the moment. The problem though is that I have a mortgage to pay! Then again, you could say that I could still focus on my work without the “want”, get the same result (making money) without all the suffering and stress caused by “wanting” it.