fly

I havent taken off and i’m already suffering. I wanted to take a gap year and use the time to find myself and my wings to fly but it seems like the journey to full flight is longer and more arjuos that i thought…so far my dad is doing everything possible to break my spirit and force me to go university this year but i dont want to and my plans to travel seem further and further away. I dont want to be forced into a future that i dont want but its seeming more and more immenent and my dreams of soaring hight seem to be getting further and further away…

think that uni was my way of flying away but now im not so sure…i need to re-think my strategies and come up with one that i dont end up wanting to fly away from

I thought that after college I would be free, that my stresses of life would leave and allow me to enjoy my holidays with my friends, but I forgot that friends can be the cause of just as much stress and right now I really need to switch of my phones and go into hibernation until my wings are fully grown and then fly away and leave the world I once called home behind.

With exams behind me and nothing but the rest of my life at my toes, I feel as though I’m already flying. I can finally let go of past hates, guilts, and friends who have plagued me, and now I can strap on my huge manufactured wings and soar towards my new destination…the future.

i cannot wait till this day and my exams are over then finally i’ll feel like i’ve flown away from my stresses and troubles and am soaring towards the future although the future may not always be good… rememeber Iccarus?

I really am not ready for this whole future thing, this isnt what i signed up for…I just want to wake up one morning and be at eye level with the clouds, heading to a place where there is no future…like neverland!

right now i’d really love to be able to strap on my huge manufactured wings and soar as close to the sun as possible just to get away from life right now because there truly is not enough hours in the day, or patience in the world to keep me sane.

i wanna free fall, or base jump… i just wanna feel the wind rushing past my face, while every problem in my life just melts way. Does any advertisment over this kind of personal satisfaction?