accept change

So far I have had some serious issues with my friends and their abundance of unsolvable issues and althoigh I tried to be a good friend to them all, i really didnt have the patience especially when I had my own stuff to deal with…then I made a friend who gave as much as they took and who was there for me continuosly and I guess I got used to that so its killing me that I have to say bye to that friend. I’m trying to accept this change but I really dont want to have to!!!!

I don’t know if anyone else here watches The O.C, or whether I’m a part of the minority, but I’m having a tough time dealing with the latest change. I live in England and so far we are up to the penultimate episode ‘The Man of The Year’ and as the eager beaver that I am I decided to read ahead to next weeks finale and find out what happens…I was mortified to discover the death of Marissa Cooper, although her character was unrealistic and a tad dramatic, I do not feel she deserved to die. Josh Schwartz could easily have let her depart to stay with her Dad, leaving fans with the hope of her return, but NO, Schwartz has gone and lost one of the shows most integral characters…and a fan!!!

I’m so scared to death of change always have been and I think I can safely say I always will. Ever since I was little we always moved houses half way through the school year so I never got the chance to really make roots and find life-long friends, instead I ended up going to 6 different primary and secondary schools, then I finally made home, only to move half way during college. I think thats why I dread university so much, the thought of having to start again with people whos attitudes and values may not be anything like mine. How am I meant to discover myself if I can’t even discover my lecture halls in the mass maze that is uni, this is such a daunting thought. All my friends have tried to reassure me that uni will be an experience of a life time… all my friends have failed.