stop speaking with my ex so much

Perhaps it’s because I’ve been feeling so stagnant (and my man is away for weeks at a time for work), I’ve been thinking too much. And by thinking, I sadly don’t mean productive thinking, I mean revisiting past relationships (and friendships) that enamored me, that defined me. I have a precarious habit of getting swept away by people, with people, loving every moment, getting very close… and then closing the door. However, my ex and I have remained friends, despite everything, and I have started to miss him (or rather the us we were together). Basically I know myself all too well, and if I don’t want to sabotage my current relationship, I need to put the distance I once put between us back between us. If I’m ever single again, I an open that door. Not now.