beat my depression & eating disorder and LIVE LIFE!

I think I’m getting this one happening for real these days :) definitely not there but I’m on my way. Just got a better perspective on things, doing things smarter, more positive.. Trying harder? And all in a good, healthy way. I feel like I can see it but I cant quite touch it. I know where I can/will hopefully be in a month or so’s time, but I can’t quite believe it’ll happen just yet.. But i know that it can. :)

hi all, is been a long time since i wrote. its been hard really hard, way up and down – but i think i am getting on top of things….. WOW. I think i found the solution to LEAVING THE BULIMIA LIFE BEHIND – i’ve found something i like better than food. it sounds so simple, and i guess it is, but its really, truly a big breakthrough. um, dont know how healthy it will turn out to be, but for now its a reason not to binge and purge and GOD thats something miraculous. ARGH i just want to be through this!!!
i put this one under the “beat my depression & eating disorder and live life” banner because for the first time in a long time, thats where i feel like i’m headed… HOORAY! i am finally wanting not JUST to stop throwing up so that i’m , well, not throwing up, but because i want to LIVE LIFE. getting back to being somebody i enjoy, who makes me happy and that actually particpates in life at last feels achievable.. and it feels SO good to think that.
to put things simply – i want life to be crazy, wild, non-stop, busy, fun, satisfying, enjoyable and meaningful. and AT LAST, thats exactly where i see myself headed.

how is everybody else going?? hope you’re somewhat closer to beating your demons, whatever they might be..

I know this is possible. Its out there, all i gotta do is go grab it. well ladies, watch me go do exactly that – i want life and i want it now!!! i will be strong. i will be smart. i will be concrete-focussed until i am somewhere i actually want to be. wish me luck…