I was doing really well at this and am still doing better than I was. I can enjoy moments such as the birds singing, children smiling all that good stuff, but I’m still thinking too much about a future me that doesn’t exsist and never will. Things are good right now and I have to stop playing with imaginary futures.
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All in all this has been working out pretty well but the day dreaming has been slipping back into my thinking. I don’t mind the day dreaming so much it’s the over reflectiveness and thinking about things that don’t require thinking that bother me.
On Friday I finally went out and bought a new horse riding whip that I’ve been needing to replace for over 6 years. 6 YEARS!! The sad thing is I almost didn’t get the whip. I was too busy hemming and hawing over the price. I finally found one in my price range and changed my attitute to what I wanted. Result – I now have a whip.
Well I can honestly say I’m living in the present. I’d be lying if I said all the time, but certainly, this week, a good deal of the time. I feel pretty happy all in all, although I’ve been really busy.
I’m still day dreaming a lot about the future. I am trying to make an effort though. I’m trying not to think too much about little things too. Sometimes it will take me months just to decide if I want to buy a book or a frige magnet or something stupid like that. I need to get to a point where I either buy the thing, leave it or save up for it, rather than humming and hawing about it for ages. I also need to think more about now and enjoy it rather than longing for some future that may not even happen.
I’ve been trying to live in the present but its really hard. I find myself day dreaming about going to Vienna or worrying about things that have happened. I need to focus more on what I’m doing now and feel happy about that.