This may sound really negative, so I’m going to cushion this with saying that I am SO surprised by myself for doing this, and feel pumped to take on my next life challenge. I’ll give you some background on me so you can better understand why this means so much more to me than your average student.
Growing up as the youngest of three kids in an asian family, my parents had very high standards. I’m sure this is common in most households and many can relate to me. In my family, there is no such thing as positive reinforcement, and having little money, there was a lot of “no you can’t” and I rarely ever heard “yes you can”. I was depressed. I performed poor. I didn’t care about anything because no one seemed to care- Up until now I had very little confidence and very small dreams. Whenever I dreampt big, I was told to be practical and that was the end of that.
There have been so many people in my life telling me that I’m stupid, and lazy, and even when I gave 110%, that it wasn’t good enough, that “I” wasn’t good enough. Well guess what, I graduated pharmacy school. One of my professors even said that I was incompetent, but I’m here, and I’m passing my boards. There were numerous times I wanted to transfer and change my major, but I knew that if I changed my major once, I would change it again and I never finish anything in my life. For once I’ve finished what I started and maybe I can start finishing all the little projects I have in my room instead of starting something and then leaving it unfinished in the drawer.
This is my time now. I’m starting new and I’m actually happy with myself and putting more goals in motion. I got myself here (with support from some incredible friends and unbelievable patient boyfriend) and I don’t think I could ever be happier in my life than now. My life starts now.
