I’ve had this issue for a while now.
Every time I attempt to look ‘pretty,’ there is this inherent voice inside me that tries to stop it. I’m unsure why, though, but it’s becoming really tiresome.
Am I afraid that people will think that I’m trying too hard?
Is it that I think that putting on make-up (or anything, for that matter) is like putting on an unrealistic mask to fool people into thinking that I’m pretty?
Is it because that I believe that I don’t have to LOOK pretty if I want worthwhile people behind me, because they would (obviously) see more than just the face?
I don’t know. But I dress down rather than dress up. I try to stop myself from reaching to lip gloss or powder. I have never worn spaghetti straps in public.
Is being plain what I am?
Or should I indulge myself when I feel like being pretty one day?
Why should I let what you think of me matter?
So what if I seem to be a bit ‘kikay’ or superficial if I DO dress up as pretty? I know I’m not superficial. And isn’t that all that counts?
Am I just saving the ‘plain’ me for special occasions so that when I transform into the ‘pretty’ me, the effect is even bigger?
I don’t know.
Perhaps if I’m just not comfortable in dressing up, then perhaps I really shouldn’t. I should ‘be myself.’
But what ever happened to ‘going out of your comfort zone’?
Hmmmm.
