lose 30 lbs

Here’s the thing…healthy food costs way more than non-healthy food. This is a problem in my house.

Why is it so hard for me to diet on the weekends? I have lost a total of 8 lbs..but i gained like 3 this weekend….w/e…start again on Monday.

Winter just isnt my season…and were slowly starting to get there. Ohio has a tendancy to go straight from summer right in to winter w/out much time to transition. I get so depressed in the winter and fed up w/ pretty much everything. Its just so easy to lose myself in a pint of Ben n’ Jerry’s and not come up for breath till ive reached the bottom. Everything sucks and all i wanna do is eat.

I went to the doctor last week for my very frist adult physical. They called today and said that i have high cholesterol (225) which is kinda concerning since im only 24…I spose that i shouldnt be shocked since I was raised with ranch and butter and krispy kreme being in their own seperate food group. Im disgusted. Ive been doing well on the diet but now im going to start in on the exercise. Im also going to include alot more fiber in the mornings and see where that gets me.

ok i have more than one weakness…i love mexican food. LOVE like a fat kid loves cake.

I visited my old church tonight and they happened to have mexican food catered in from my FAVORITE PLACE IN THE WORLD..u know the ending.

Did you guys know…that one single Krispy Kreme doughnut is ONLY!! 200 CALORIES!...not that i had one tonight or anything…um…ok fine! But in my defense..i was w/in my calorie limit! and NO i do not feel guilty!

Im in this small group…(thats what we call em) through my church. And my group is trying to start a church plant (Haven) outside of Columbus…good stuff.

So anyways, im pretty tight with these ppl. I love them and they love me. Its a beautiful thing we have going on out there. Beautiful indeed cept were all a buncha lardys. So weve all decided that were going to do a group weight loss contest thing. Kinda like The Biggest Loser - Christian style.

I think it will be helpful for me b/c i spend alot of my weekend with them and its so hard to stay on a diet on the weekends. Theres always so much food going around…or we’ll meet for lunch or dinner..or doughnuts! (side note: freakin mark! brought krispy kreme doughnuts in my house this morning!!! holds the bag up in front of my face and asked me IF I WANT ONE?! AS IF he didnt know ive been dying all week for a doughnut…!) It will also be helpful b/c if im encouraging other ppl then maybe itll be easier on me than being all alone in my quest.

This weekend is gonna be rough tho. My problem is that we usually eat out twice or so on the weekends. I spose as long as i stick to a side salad and some grilled chicken ill be fine..w/e.

MARSHMALLOW CREME 2 tbs. = 45 calories. Way WAY satisfying!

Tonight i want to go into krispy kreme and sit in the middle of the icing and eat fried dough till i puke. Or maybe id rather eat a few pumpkin pies…or anything chocolate. Theres a reeses pb cup sitting on my kitchen counter…its been taunting me for a few hours now. How many calories can there really be in one little pb cup?? I mean REALLY!
I went to the doctor today for a checkup. I dont know why they insist on weighing you every single time you go in there but yeah…so i get on the scale and it said 178.2! and!! i was wearing jeans! The nurse had already started walking away to the room…but i was like “is this scale right?!” she said yes so i got on it again. Still 178.2! i couldnt believe it. I know she musta been thinkin…”geez, fat cow…whys she so excited about that?” but that was the first time ive broken 180 in 3 years! 3 YEARS!!! Big deal in my world. That means…that ive lost 4 lbs. in 4 days. Awesome.
I told my husband to tell me how skinny i was today b/4 i raided krispy kreme and got arrested…he says, “youre so skinny…you hafta wear snow skis in the bathtub so you dont fall down the drain!” :o) Thanks Mark!

Ive met my cal goal for 2 days in a row and it honestly hasnt been that hard. Something is different this time. Its like im simply not giving myself a failure option. I think about it all day long and ive been journaling everything that goes in my mouth..that really helps. I looked up a list of foods and their cal content so i have it handy.
Ive been eating lots of fruits and vegis, lots of water and soup is a good thing too. Also, ive been taking a vitamin for awhile now so im making sure to keep up w/ that…my nails are starting to look pretty nice.
Heres the thing tho…im still breastfeeding and im worried that my milk supply is slowing down with my cal intake. Thats not good at all. Not too sure what to do about that. Its not huge problem right now..but im watching it.