i want to be a better partner

this goal needs to be completed to prevent further happenings of my past relationship.

straight to the point: the harder i try and the more effort i put into being a better partner, the worse things get and the more i become a bad partner.

i make stupid mistakes because prior to doing something (i believe) there isnt anything negative that culd realy come out of it… (and im very wrong) and then it turns out really bad and the things i try and do to improve as a gf cause further deterioration within the relationship and further degrade myself as a partner.

sigh