Niel in Bronkhorstspruit is doing 43 things including…

discover emotion

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Niel has written 23 entries about this goal

How things have changed!  — 11 months ago

This week I saw the movie The Lives of Others (Das Leben der Anderen). It generated powerful emotions in me, and I felt it, lived it, expressed it. I’m by no means an expert, but I know something about emotion now.

Sep 15, 2007, 01:21PM PDT 1 cheer | 0 comments

Integration  — 2 years ago

I had to have it pointed out to me, but I am now living a fully emotional life. That’s not to say one cannot learn more about and from emotions, but the discovery phase has passed

Jul 12, 2006, 04:04AM PDT 1 cheer | 3 comments

In public  — 2 years ago

Probably for the first time in my life I’ve expressed anger in public.

Jun 30, 2006, 06:42AM PDT 1 cheer | 5 comments

Mood: a combination of emotions  — 2 years ago

Being stuck in bed, with lots to do and no ability to do leads to mild frustration. Also a little anxiety about the time that is lost and some toxic guilt about not working.

Apr 05, 2006, 01:31PM PDT | 5 comments

Shock  — 2 years ago

Funny how shock as a emotion is still real, even if one is prepared for the news.

Apr 03, 2006, 09:55AM PDT | 1 comment

Relief  — 2 years ago

Relief seems to be a deep emotion when a conflict between apparent facts and a deep knowledge is resolved.

Mar 01, 2006, 11:45AM PST | 0 comments

Flattened.  — 2 years ago

Richard O’Connor says the pain of depression is not sadness, but an absence of emotion. I think I now understand what he means by that. I got nominally good news today, but I am not in the least excited about it. I feel neither gratitude nor relief.

Feb 08, 2006, 12:11PM PST 2 cheers | 5 comments

Light green  — 2 years ago

I see it is on the list so I might as well say it: Maybe I’m jealous.

Let’s see if that makes sense when I’ve thought about it.

Feb 07, 2006, 01:04PM PST 1 cheer | 1 comment

I didn't want it.  — 2 years ago

There’s a special kind of emotion that comes with evidence that someone is cheating.

I got that feeling today, inappropriately, and I take it as (more) evidence that things went much deeper than I thought.

Feb 06, 2006, 05:34AM PST 1 cheer | 5 comments

Turned down  — 2 years ago

An application for funding is turned down. I’m affected. I feel frustration because an opportunity for self-expression is denied, disappointment because I can’t do what I thought I could, hurt because the decision was partly based on who I am, and some anxiety because it reduces my financial security.

Jan 25, 2006, 09:23AM PST | 3 comments

Niel has gotten 37 cheers on this goal.

 

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