leave

Wishing I was some place else, many miles away.

I want to be under foreign skies. I want to stay indoors in a place where it rains all day. Or be outdoors lying flat on a mat in a big green park and let the world pass me by. Anywhere but here.

Everything that is familiar reminds me of my life that has become weary and safe. I should be grateful, and indeed I am . But I also wonder if I’m being too careful most days.

I forgot what it’s like to have blood rush to my head. Or to smell unfamiliar scents amidst winding cobbled paths in a place forgotten by time. To see colours and shapes never before seen by these eyes.

I want to go where my destiny takes me, and I have a feeling it’s not here.

There’s a new condo which is nearing completion. It’s very near my office and smack in the center of Subang. I like the look and from what I gather, the price is reasonable. Stuff of dreams indeed.

..my family drives me completely and absolutely nuts. We have a funny way of showing affection, by making jokes that can at times, get too personal. That’s what happens when we’re too tough to say, I love you.

..when nowhere feels like home..