learn to forgive

I’m still learning day by day how to forgive. Mostly forgive WHAT happened and yes sometimes the people. I have figured out that sadly a lot of times people wrong you they aren’t sorry about it and I’ve found it very hard to forgive someone who isn’t sorry but I have found that it is possible to forgive a situation and what they did. You have to find forgiveness to find peace with it and move on. I’ve since gotten married and my husband is amazing at helping me face things head on and find my peace with it.

Recently my now ex boyfriend betrayed me. At first I was soo angry with him. I wanted to kill him. I wanted to die. Everything made me angry. Everything reminded me of him and his betrayal. I thought I would never be happy again. I felt like I could never trust someone again. Especially not a male.

Although its only been one month, vs the two years we were together. I’m beginning to forgive what he did. I don’t know when I’ll honestly 100% forgive him, but I am trying my best to. Not because I want to be able to work things out with him (at this point its just not gonna happen) but because I want to truly move on and find inner peace. I don’t want this to affect my future relationships. I know I will move on and I know I will be happy again. I don’t want that tainted by the pain of the past.

i’ve been realizing over an extended period of time that forgiveness starts within yourself. i cannot forgive those who have done me wrong until i can forgive myself for letting it happen and all the wrong i’ve done to myself and even others. im not sure how im going to go about this. i expect it to be a hard road. but i AM going to do it.