stop doubting myself

i knew in order to get a job I had to believe in MYSELF. otherwise no one else would, therefore no one would hire me. so i just said fuck it. why is it i think i cant do this? i cant think of any reason. i just doubted myself. and why? i dont know if ill ever know. i guess i just didnt feel good enough. but for who? i dont know. im fine with myself. and for me, now, thats good enough. now that i got a job, and i know i am doing my job well i just believe. the doubt isnt completely gone. im always scared ill fail my new task. now instead of letting that stop me i just use that fear to help me complete my new task. and so far, so good.

i feel like a different person walking around. and thinking. the way i have been. instead of just assuming i cant do it, im always thinking “why not, its worth a shot, or im pretty sure i can do that.” it feels really good to believe in yourself again. i mean if YOU cant believe in YOU how can someone else?