Apply for that job!

Like I said in the last entry for it… L’s pretty much convinced me it would look “desperate”. I don’t want to risk the job I already applied for with the company on that. I’m pretty sure I want job #1 more. So… I could just remove the goal, but I want to keep my entries, so I can see them later and see why I made the decision. Thus, the give-up page. If I don’t get job #1 (oh please let me get it), then I’ll apply for job #2, assuming it’s still there. If I do… then it’ll be moot. And like I said… really this does kind of fall under “Support myself doing something I love” already. So… it’s redundant AND potentially unwise, and I have so many other things I can’t fit on the list. Sorry, goal, but you’ve been cut.

L thinks if I apply for a second position there, it’ll look desperate. Damn. She’s usually right about these things.

I wonder if that means I should ‘give up’ on this goal… or should I keep it around in case (gods forbid) I don’t get the other position? I could always add it again then, I guess, and… hrm. In a way it already rolls into ‘Support myself doing something I love’. And I do have so many other things that could use this spot in the list…

Okay. This goal’s being retired, for now at least. If I get job #1 it’ll be moot, and if I don’t, well, I’ll apply for job #2 if it’s still advertised. It’s been there a while… it might stick around a few more weeks. I hope.

Why am I procrastinating so badly on this? Maybe because it’s not the job I want more, and I’m still waiting to hear about that one… Buuuut… I would probably be good at it. And there’s no major reason it couldn’t be done from here. Mrm.

Will it hurt my chances at job #1 if I apply for job #2, I wonder? Hrm.