lose 5kg

The second week of my diet started yesterday. I did not lose any weight during the first week :(. I made some positive changes however, so I’m hoping that those changes will pay off this week. I also went running three times and made the effort to move a bit more by just going for a walk around the block or walking to tescos instead of cycling.

This week’s target is to lose 1kg. I have to lose it.
Goals for this week:

• run x4
• cycle x2
• yoga x2
• no eating after 8pm
• no snacks other than fruit/veg
• watch what/how much I eat in general – portion control!
• move a lot

Yesterday was not a great day but today I’ve had a brilliant day so far! I went for a run in the morning (60mins/8.5k walk/run), then cycled 9k at lunch time and I’ve eaten very lightly. I’m also wearing my jeans, which are a bit tight, just to remind me that I really need to watch what I eat.

I was writing in my journal earlier today about how frustrating it is that I’ve put on weight again and how difficult it is to shift it and how I feel that I just can’t control my eating no matter how hard I try. Then I realised that it’s not all that bad, I am slowly getting back on track again and things are actually going pretty well.
The positive changes I’ve already made this week are:

• Given up sugar again (on Friday)- the sugar jar is really working
• Started to stick to meal times
• Am about 70% there with my eating – I’m happy with what I eat, just need to eat less and know when to stop
• Went running twice, the second time (today) running my new 5k loop (running/walking)
• Started moving a little bit more

This is all good stuff! Really good! I don’t need to do that much more, really. The next steps are:

• Cut down on the amount I eat. Smaller portions and only have seconds if I’m hungry
• No eating after 8pm
• Stick with running regularly and also go cycling and do yoga
• Move even more. Walk to the shops rather than cycle as much as possible. Aim to move in the morning, lunch time and afternoon/evening

Yesterday I ended up eating far too much again, but I think I’ve figured it out why it happens, why I often end up eating all day long… it’s because I’m not sticking to regular meal times. Because I’m at home, I can eat when ever I want to, so I often end up having breakfast late (because I’m too busy checking my emails, 43T etc) and lunch early (because I can’t think of anything else to do, so why not). Then I get hungry again in the afternoon or sometimes (most of the times) I just eat because I’m so bored and there’s something nice in the fridge…
Today I’ve tried to stick to meal times and so far it’s going well. I had breakfast quite late again, so have to improve on that tomorrow, but I didn’t have lunch until 1.30/2pm, which is really good. Because I made the decision to stick to meal times, it’s also been easy to resist going to the fridge several times between meals and actually it’s not been hard at all. I’ve just one snack in the afternoon (a banana) and I might have a handful of toasted seeds soon because i feel a little pekish. It’s a bit too early to say this, but I have a feeling I might have found a way to stop eating all the time and to my surprise, it’s really easy.
Tomorrow I’ll try to improve by having breakfast before 9am, that should also help me get started in the morning.

I’m really down about my weight (which is up, ha haa) and have to start doing something. I notice the weight gain in my clothes and it’s so depressing. So, I’m going to have to make this my priority for a while and set some weekly goals.

This week, I want go lose 1kg (from yesterday’s weight).
I want to:

• Run or cycle every day
• Move more every day – this means going out for a walk or cycling to the shops or something. I just need to move.
• Not eat after 8pm
• Not eat sugar.
• Not eat wheat
• Only eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full. Stop eating out of boredom
• Drink a lot of water
• Take my thyroid medicine first thing in the morning & don’t eat/drink for at least 30mins after
• Drink less coffee. I’m drinking far too much coffee again

this has gone so badly in the last two weeks… a major disaster. I think I’ve put on almost 5kg :( I’m too scared to weigh myself.
Today things are starting to get better. I’m off sugar again. Went running yesterday and today and have eaten really well. I will try to go running four or five times a week, do some cycling or go for walks, no eating after 8pm , no sugar or wheat and no junk food at all.

I’ve put on that 1kg I lost the other week, so I’m just going to aim for 5kg from today. After that, I’ll decide if I’m happy to stop there, or if I want to get to my original target weight and lose another 3kg.
I should make a lot of progress in the next three weeks.

this morning I was 1kg lighter than yesterday! I think some if was that-time-of-the-month. I’ve also been drinking lots of juice, which should get rid of any water retention and bloating. Good start! Obviously it won’t continue at this rate, I hope it won’t, but it’s great for motivation. I think I picked the right time of month to start ;). 4 kilos to go.

to make more of an effort. The last 2 days have been good. _{:: knocks on wood::}
I was shocked when I weighed myself the other day. I’ve put on 3kg!! It was a day before that-time-of-the-month, so I reckon about a kilo is probably because of that, water retention or whatever. Today, already, my weight was down half a kilo. Still, a lot of work to do. Instead of trying to lose 7kg, I’m going to aim for 5kg from today’s weight. I found it so depressing to think that I have to first lose 2kg, before I can properly start working on this goal. After the 5kg I can start a new goal for losing the last 2 kilos. Or I might be happy with my weight at that point already.

tomorrow is the day… I’m going to start working on this seriously. Exercise first thing, have a light breakfast and then go to Tescos to get some fruit and veg…
I think the main thing for me is to keep active. If I stay at home all day, I end up eating too much. So, I have to make a point of going out every day for few hours.
I cannot wait to see some results! I’ll feel fabulous!
_{lets hope the motivation does’t disappear during the night!}

This morning, when I put my suit on and looked at myself in the mirror, I was disgusted with myself. I really noticed that I’ve put on weight. It’s only about 2kg, but that seems to have taken me from looking slim to looking a bit flabby. My belly is flabby. My face is rounder. I don’t like what I see and I know I’m to blame for it. I’ve been lazy and I’ve lacked discipline. Being at home alone all day, at times depressed, often bored, I’ve ended up eating too much an also, I’ve eaten a lot of sugary stuff.
This has got to stop. I think I now have about 7kg to lose (I’ll weight myself tomorrow morning). I need to do something about it. If I could lose the first 2kg asap, after that I’d be happy to lose the rest little by little.

Plan:
Lots of exercise: yoga, running, cycling and crunches, something every day. Sweat!
Eat well: I’m in two minds about counting calories. I have a tendency to get a bit obsessive about eating and calories, so not sure if I should concentrate on just variety and healthy detox-y food instead of tracking calories. Hmmm…
Motivation: Lots of 43T peeps are working on similar goals (and doing much better than I am!) so keep on reading their entries. All the clothes I can wear… I’ll feel better about myself… Maybe find pics of good looking slim people and stick them on the fridge… I think if I can lose the first kilo, that will motivate me to go on.
Timescale: hmmm… the first 2kg in the next 2 weeks? the rest by the end of July/early august? I don’t want to set too strict deadlines but also I need to set some time limits if I ever want to get this done.

I find this a bit frustrating, but I’m trying to remind optimistic. I know I can do this, I lost weight before and it wasn’t even too hard.