to help me deal with my colleagues in my last job. Since I left there, I haven’t once felt that I’ve said the wrong thing or gotten myself into any kind of trouble/uncomfortable situation because of what I’ve said. If anything, I think I’m very considerate with people and tend to do everything I can not to hurt people’s feelings. I hope, if I ever have to deal with people like my old colleagues, that I’ve learned from this and will be able ignore them and not get involved. Because sometimes it’s just not worth it.

AAARRRRGGHH!!

One of those days. Everything is getting on my nerves! Nothing out of the ordinary has happened, people are nice to me, no one has done anything particularly annoying; I’m just feeling really irritable. I’m sitting here thinking about things that annoy me, things I’d like to say to people… I get so worked up I want to cry. Actually, I wish I could cry, because that would release the stress/tension and I’d feel better afterwards. I will try not to take this out on the husband this evening…

GRRRRRR!!

I’ve done pretty well today, had a lovely chat with couple of people at lunch time. Certain people were not there, so the atmosphere was much more peaceful and no one argued with anyone (these certain people likes to disagree about everything…)

Earlier on though, I went to get a drink and got chatting to two people. One of them was saying something that I knew for a fact was incorrect (it was ‘how to get from A to B in London’, I lived in A for years and B is a well known place that I know very well…). So I opened my big mouth and said I would actually do it completely differently and explained how, but the person insisted that her way was better (although it so is not, argh!). I felt slightly annoyed, especially because I know that she knows that I used to live in the said area A…

The thing is, she’s one of those people who hate to be wrong and will never admit they’re wrong, especially in front of other people, and she tends to know everything better than anyone else. I should have known this and just said nothing, bite my tongue and walk away, that way, I wouldn’t have had to deal with the irritation I felt afterwards.

So the lesson of the day is that sometimes it’s best to not say anything. It is not always necessary to correct people, even when I know for a fact that they are wrong. Some people find this rather irritating than helpful. It’s ok to let people be wrong and it’s ok for them to think that I think they are right, even when I know they are wrong. None of it really matters and at the end of the day, life is easier if you just let (certain people) believe that they are right about everything.

I hope this entry doesn’t make me look like I think I know everything better, because I most certainly don’t think that. In fact, I’m quite happy to admit that I know nothing about anything, and that often I’m wrong. It’s just sometimes when you know for a fact that you know something and someone else is wrong and you try to nicely and politely correct them and they stick their nose up in the air and tell you ‘no no no, YG, I’m telling you, I know this….’ ARRRGGGHHH!!!

It was only my second day back at work and already I started feeling irritated and annoyed with some people’s nosiness and the gossiping in the office. I think it’s fair to say that I don’t exactly fit in with the people I work with. They’re all very nice and I get along with them, but they’re just so different from me. Their lifestyles, values and views are very different from mine. There’s nothing wrong with that, but I need to learn to deal with it differently. I need to learn that I don’t always have to express my views (because they just don’t get me) and that I don’t have to answer every question I am asked (because they ask some very direct questions about things that I think are no one elses business, such as personal finances – people seem to be obsessed with other people’s money and knowing the cost of everything that someone owns).
Another thing is the fact that people assume they know things about you. They assume that everyone is just like everyone else. That really gets to me and I find it difficult to keep my mouth shut when people think they know me, or something about me, and they so don’t. There was an incident today (which is why I’m writing this today) and now I’m feeling really crap about it. It wasn’t necessary for me to tell people that actually I’m not going to (have to) do what people assume I will (have to) do. Argh! I tried to be as diplomatic as possible, but I think I still managed to offend some people, though that most certainly was not my intention. One thing I know for a fact, is that there probably was a lot of bitching behind my back this afternoon…
I need to learn to rise above it. So what if people assume things about me, what difference does it make in my life?
Some things are just better left unsaid…