make more time for myself

not putting off my needs for others! and dammit! Iam going to stick to it! I have found in the last week that alot of my not having time for myself is because I put others first. and not just my family… no good. I am done! well.. I know this behavior will take time.. but I am up to the challange!

than any other day I guess.. just find like I am being pulled into directions I don’t want to go. Feel like I am in the “HAVE TO” mode rather than “want to” mode… Really don’t like that mode. Wish I had more time for me.

10:46 pm and 11:46 pm. It is kind of an odd feeling.. two of my girls aren’t home- I am used to celebrating every year with the 5 of us at least, if not a housefull. So I am going to take it easy- fix the chicken pens, have some good food and a big bonfire:) Maybe an improptu ritual late in the night:) The sun sets at 49 mins after midnight and then rises at 3:46 am. 21hrs 03min of daylight hours today…. the north sure is amazing.
It’s going to be a good day:)

i took some time for myself!I had accually stayed home to clean / organize / plant / etc… instead of going to the war, but I got to chat with some friends and catch up on a few things that weren’t really a priority:) it was nice!

Worked like mad the last few days. Today is my first day off in a while again. Been starting work at 5 am the last 3 days and getting into bed near midnight. Working three jobs a day for three days and two jobs a day for the rest of the week. I felt like I was coming down with something and sure enough on my first day off I have this horrid flu:( Just feel like crap physically- now mentally as well.. I don’t want to do a thing today but sit- yet I am torn between the things I know I would enjoy doing / not doing anything / and the things I SHOULD be doing .. some of which I do enjoy. I must be mentally/physically beat cause I just can’t make up my mind and I feel overwhelmed at the thought of even making the decision. Either or.. I am taking the time I do have for myself and fouling it:( I need a kick in the ass.

it is something I MAKE time for everyday! Even if it is cutting into sleep time for a few mins. I feel more focused and like I am doing something for me:) I like this time I take for me.

The lift at the hill broke yesterday and a little girl got injured with a broken collarbone:( The inspector is coming up from down south today… we’ll see if it passes his inspection. Apperantly he closed the hill down once before and some local politicians had to get involved to get it back up and running. Would love a day off.. but I can’t afford it really- I hope they don’t get shut down.

lol I am hoping that when april does get here I fine that I have some more time to myself.. I am getting too mold for these 14 + hour work days. The house is still suffering for it too… cause when I am home for 6-8 hours I am kinda partial to resering that time for sleep;) lol Next week is going to be crazy… no doubt about that. I am taking on my g/f’s job cleaning the airport evenings as a trade off while she goes to see her sweetie in Edmonton, so she will watch my catering while I sneek off to mexico:)Don’t know quite how Iam going to pull it off yet.. but should be interesting!

I got a gift certificate from my girlfriend for my birthday last October at my favorite store. I still hadn’t used it though they had so many beautiful things I could have gotton for myself. So yesterday I deceided to take a half hour and “go shopping” – which I accually hate to do… but in this store it has a lot of antique stuff and lovely home/garden accessories. So I wnet in and there he was… I saw him in there a few times before but never approached him. Today I went right over, nabbed him and took him home. Isn’t he beautiful?

This will be the first year in … at least 10 that I have to work on it. When the kids were little I always made sure that I had all the holidays off so that the family could be together for them. This year I work:( There was no way about getting it off and I am really sad about it. Dare was thinking he could take time off that day being I only work a few hours .. so that may be good:) I hope the weather holds so we can spend the day outside;)