lose 20 pounds and keep it off

I haven’t gotton on a scale but I am finally dropping a few pounds- my clothes are fitting differently and I can see the changes;)

I don’t know if it helped me drop any pounds but I do know I feel a bit better for it. I did eat some bread last night as a treat being I couldn’t eat BD cake:) I am going to stick with my eating plan and break my popcorn addiction!

starting a cleanse today:)
Wish I could have gotton on the scale at the docs so I could track my progress exactly.. but as long as I lose some weight and feel great all is good;)

a pic of mye during Samhain from the back.. MY ASS IS HUGE!!!!!!!! ok.. granted I have always had a bubble butt.. but this weight is WAY more noticeable than I thought! I have been putting losing it off and dicking around and now it is 22 pounds.. FUCK!
so I am soooo done with messing about on this goal and waiting for the right time. NO more alcohol. NO more breads.
Time to kick my own ass.. right off!

doing pretty good on this goal. not eating as much as I should… hope to remedy that soon. No drinking for the last nearly 2 weeks I am sure that will help- wine is so good- but has so many empty calories:(. All I need to work on is my night time popcorn habit.. damn I love popcorn:)

this is taking forever to dedicate myself to… dammit already:( I went by the docs today to find out I have gained 3 more pounds!!!:( not happy about this. why do I gain and lose the same 20 pounds every year? just stay off dammit!

Decided that Monday is my starting point.. the scales still say I am at the same weight but my clothes are starting to fit differently.. maybe it is in my mind- maybe in reality – I don’t know- but I am feeling dumpy and unattractive:(
I talked to Jay and we are going to start monday:) He has [retty much lost all his weight and looking amazing, but he wants to tone- so the two of us (and I hope Dare) are gonna get at it and see what can be done!!!
Feeling really motivated- AND we are talking about Mexico again in feb/march… so that will help with my motivation!
bring it on dammit! your GONE 20 pounds!!!

yay:) still being diligent although I did break down and have a decaf coffee this morn. It was a cold night and this morning is very chilly too in the house still with no heat. Yet it isn’t cold enough to start the wood stove.. anyways;)
I really need to loose this weight. If I wind up going to California to help Brian out for a few weeks I best get my ass in shape or he’ll run me into the ground! lol

still have the same amount of weight to lose. At least I haven’t added to it in these past months. Been diligent for 5 days now- though I have stayed away from the scale, I don’t know if I have lost anything lately…
but I do feel better being on track!

my cleanse today! I always feel better when I do one;)