take action

I really really really really wanted something to eat afterskool. So, I had a granola Bar. I wanted something else, but I knew that what ever I ate after that would turn into a binge. I was able to make it that time, but now I’m seriously craving a binge and I just had dinner more than an hour ago…..........I just might cave in tonight. :(

I really really really really wanted to go to the store to buy cookies. It was something I wanted at that moment so much!! I took out my wallet to see how much money I had and I was just about to enter the store when I saw this girl. She was so freaken HOT! OMG! She had on these cute shorts, that I was dying to get. Unfortunately I’m too insecure to wear shorts like that. That gave me the willpower to go home to eat my fat free yogurt. That was so weird, it was like a sign from God. I was so ready for those cookies, but that girl just looked too sexi in those shirts. I wanna be like that….confident enough to wear shorts in the street.

Great Legs = Confidence …...to wear shorts

When I’m low on money I usually buy a muffin for luch cuz its only a dollar. I know muffins are not too good for you, because the big ones I buy have alot of fat and like 600 calories for one. I couldn’t resist yesterday and then I felt guilty for eating it and threw it up. Today, I decided that putting in some extra money was worth me getting over this disease (bulimia). So today instead of a muffin, I had a fruit bowl and a nutrigrain bar. Tiffany was laughing at me for eating healthy all the time, but that just made me want to continue eating healthy.

I resisted the urge to reach for those bag of chips today and yesterday I only purged 3 times, instead of 4 times (lmao :D)........Yes I know, I’m a terrible person

Is to take some kind of action towards my goals everday.Cuz without taking action, nothing will ever get done. Today I took action toward “Get a Six Pack before Tameika” goal. I went to the supermarket and was craving cake. I picked up a Lemon Crunch cake which was 210 calories and 9 grams of fat each serving (I knew i would eat more than one serv. ). I put it in my cart, while feeling the urge to actually eat it right there in the market. Feeling tempted and thinking about my goal made me take it out of the cart and put it back. I felt bad and good at the same time.