Be absurdly classy.

I don’t like this goal anymore. As I mentioned in a previous post, it’s not specific enough. There’s no sense in having a goal staring you in the face when it has no real end to it.

I like the way I act. I’m fine. :-)

I need to do this, because unfortunately, while this goal is great – it’s not specific enough. I’ve talked a lot about losing my spark and spunk, and I think I am.

When I have some time to mull things over the right way, I”m going to review what I do and see if I can be more specific about how I want to be/present myself/act.

I feel like I’m going against this goal. I don’t know how much progress I’ve achieved, and I don’t know if I care.

I’m classier than most, and I know how to conduct myself in most situations. I think right now that I really need to reel myself in amongst the people I’m closest to. I think I scare them.

Really, sometimes I don’t. I feel like I lose my spunk, my spark, and anything else that gives me a fun side. With that said, I do think that I should be thinking about how I react to situations, particularly when I’m angry. I feel like I have class in every other aspect besides that. But isn’t that what being angry is about?

Or at least getting better. I think that sometimes you need a blow-out fight to realize what’s going on. I feel I’ve done well since our big fight, and I’m glad that J pushed me to the edge.

I feel like I grew up and have the ability to act and be treated like an adult – and if that’s not an ultimate goal, I don’t know what is.

Sometimes, I should still just shut up.

I would have initially written some type of goal like “Get along with others” or try to “Fight fairly”, etc. but I always kind thought it should be included in this category because I didn’t have too much of a problem with it.

I’m kicking myself in the head right now because I apparently have no ability to be classy when I’m upset. It’s very easy for me if things are going OK, or even mildly rough. But when they start going downhill quickly, so do I.

I really have to change it, and as I’ve said with other posts, I need to hit rock bottom to do it. Consider the rock bottom part achieved. Now onto being a human instead of an asshole.

I don’t even know what this means anymore.

I feel like I mostly relate this to my appearance, but I don’t know why – I should be relating this to my appearance, emotions, attitude, etc. I need to think long and hard – again – about this goal.

This goal is fairly vague, but I think it’s a good one to still have on here. I think I’m more mindful of what I do, but I think I need to think about the definition of classy if I’m to keep this on here and meet the goal successfully.

My walk is looking darn good lately. I have to work on my sitting posture too, though.

I hate not to write a lot for this entry, but it’s something that I think I’m making more and more of a conscious effort on. I still really have to work on the hair, but that will be addressed below.

During my holiday absence, I found that I was quite able to keep up this goal. Even being sick, overwhelmed, and through a bevy of other things, I managed to stay a lady, as much as humanly possible.

For now, I’m going to try to work on cursing less. Or at least sounding a bit more intelligent. As weird as this sounds, I feel like I’ll lose some of my “spice” if I cut out the potty mouth, but it’s at least worth a try!