Pass Spanish 3

I was getting less done during my tutoring sessions than I do when I’m home, alone. I signed up for Spanish 2 for Fall semester..even though I passed it with a “B” ten years ago. Oh, well.

I will take Spanish 3 right in the Spring. I feel so relieved and more accepting. I’m not going to beat myself up anymore for failing. I just had unrealistic expectations of myself before. Now I have a plan that I can succeed at.

Woot! :o)

is nice. she talks a lot during the sesssions about non related Spanish stuff. I haven’t been getting enough work done. It was a little better today, but 8 hours of tutoring have passed. I need her to talk less about her other stuff and help me more.

I worked with my Spanish CD ROMS for 2 hours tonight. Going to go do some homework soon.

I made 100 of them today.

Oh it was terrible that I’m failing Spanish 3. But WHAT WAS I THINKING??? Of course I couldn’t pass having taken Spanish 10 years ago! Well, I just got myself a tutor. I’ll be tutored 9 hours per week, give my mini-tape player to my friend who will record each lecture for me so that I can replay them when I get up to speed. Spanish 3 lectures will be recorded for me in the mornings while I go to tutoring. I have tutoring every morning and 2 afternoons. I will work on my Spanish 1 & 2, since I have my old books. I will work on those websites and utilize the foreign language lab which has audio CDs and Spanish learning games. I’m giddy! I will do all this and then I will go to my University and take the placement test and pass the requirement for Spanish 3. I will finally have earned my bachelors degree after 10 years of trying all the while being a single mother and raising my son.

I’ve been trying to understand the instructions for my Spanish homework. I can’t make sense of it. I’ve been working on it for 6+ hours tonight. I’m going to take a bath and read my book a bit more and then go to class. It’s so hard to stay awake during the 3 1/2 hour class when I’m up all night studying, especially because I don’t understand anything that’s going on..it’s discouraging.

My alarm on my phone was set to “silent” i didn’t wake up until 11:00 AM! Missed class! I’m setting 3 alarms this morning…seriously. Going to inquire about tutoring tomorrow, too.

I studied like crazy, but I just don’t remember Spanish. I feel the urge to give up because I don’t see how I can pass. The teacher said this was the easy test just to get us back into the swing of things. I didn’t even understand what she was saying in Spanish when she was giving the instructions. Do I keep attending and fail? I could drop the class at the last minute and continue going as an “audit”. But, I wouldn’t get credit. I could try to take the competency test at my university after this class ends. I’d probably fail that, too. If I take it another semester, I’ll just be in this same sinking boat. I’m old, have a teenage son, and am in deep student loan debt. My degree will get me a higher paying job. Tonight, I will study my old Spanish 1 book. I need to re learn the vocabulary and conjucations. I needed to get this off my chest. I haven’t told any friends or family because they’d just be disappointed in me. I think they expect me to fail because they know the odds are against me on this one.

I really am. I just don’t remember any Spanish. My teacher speaks Spanish almost exclusivily in class. She’ll ask me questions and almost most of the time I have no idea what she’s asking so I’ll try to guess and say an answer but I’m wrong 80% of the time. This morning she said my earrings were pretty and “what are you supposed to say?” She was joking around but I had no idea what she was asking. I said ”?Como estas?” then she said something in Spanish and said “No, what are you supposed to say?” and I said ”?Como estas, Senora?” The class was laughing..Then she told me in English that my earrings were pretty and asked how was I to respond. I said “Gracias?” The class laughed again. I think I should become a clown. Then she said “No! You’re supposed to say you’ll give them to me!” and she smiled. I feel so embarrased in class. She talked to me after class and said “You seem to be having a hard time.” I must pass this class.

I don’t want to fail. I haven’t taken Spanish for 10 years. This is going to be INTENSE. School takes up 12 hours of my day, all to pass this ONE class!