get better grades

i got an E. argh. as i’m used to being at the top of the class this was, i think, what i need to make me work. i didnt revise. the rest of my subjects i also didnt revise for but did okay (AAB) hmm. i am to see this in a positive light – use it as motivation not demoralisation. yes. thats the plan. seeing as i now have my heart set on where i want to go for uni and i need AAA to go, i need to work. hmmm. off to revise now me thinks!

the thing is before this year i wasn’t used to having to work escecailly hard for my grades…so now becasue i’m not really trying i’m not doing so good! i’ve got mocks this week. haven’t revised. i can sence i’m gunna do badly at chemistry…it’s one of those subject i have to actually i “learn” something. ah well, i’ll give it a shot.
when i finally finish at least 2 of my art projects i’m buying myself a new camera…that’s my motivation to get it finally complete, i want that camera and but feel incredibally guilty about spending +£200 on it, so if i do something to deserve it i’m hopeing the guilt will lessen!
hmmmm back to the essaying now me thinks…

i’m trying to work better than last year, basically i get average to good marks, but i have high standards, i know that I can do better than i am already which is the main thing. i got my end of term report on friday it was goodish, but i need to improve my chemistry. thing is i’ve never really had to work as hard as other people seem to have to, therefore i don’t, and then i don’t get as good as i persoanlly could, not compared to others. hummmm. i’m doing a lot better in english than i did last year at GCSE, which is good, and i am getting As, which last year i’d never have expected!...i took english ‘cause i love it, but wasn’t too good at the essays!

i’ll see how i do in my mocks. i’m happy this year so far, i think becasue i love all my subjects so much and i now have an aim of what i want to do at uni!

okay, my aim: no less than 80% in any homework, tests, coursework, etc. this year. Gunna be hard to maintain continously in all subjects but I’ll try! if by this half-term i manage it i’m allowing a small shopping trip. so far all over 90% excpet for one piece of chemisty which was 81%, therefore so-far-so-good! off to do a 2,000 word essay: due in tomorrow…hummm, i never learn- this is the third “day before” essay in the last week…

right, can start from scratch which is good!..started my AS-levels.

i’m taking five (will likely drop one as kinow i won’t manage), already have lessons in lunch time, although nearly everyone does. And have only one 35min in school in which to simply “study”. My friend’s also put me down for some kind of extra chemistry course and this buisness group thingy, and i want to do this art drawing on saturdays (not directly school related), plus my weekend job. Ugg, i KNOW i won’t cope. plus home-work and now taken up other activities in the evenings. and i’m used to having a social life…how will i ever manage??...almost tempted to change “get better grades” to simply “get a grade”!

ah well, it’ll all turn out okay in the end. i’ll likely drop a subject. sigh i’m not used to getting stressed, (which i undoubtedly will be) i’m usually the calm one while others in the same situation are completly stressed out.

3xBs 4xAs 3xA stars. i guess they’re not that bad. didnt help the fact most of my freinds got mainly A*s and maybe a couple of As!...meant mine were less in comparision! ah well. Least it means i’ll maybe work harder in the future, as i worked hard up to the exams then i had a good social life, and let work slip. won’t happen agian! learn from mistakes!!

Tomorrow i get my results and i find out how i’ve done…surprisingly i’m not at all nervous…just excited to find out how i did! i wish i’d worked harder towards the end, although there’s nothing to be done about that now!! Oww can’t wait!!

well, i started great in the sense of grades, got fantastic marks, coursework etc. then i kinda got fed up with not having a life and began to leave work ‘till later, so now have only a few weeks to mend the damage for not revising and being very, very behind on my art coursework…due in in ummm 4 days. so untill then i’m really going to miss sleeping as much!!
so i’m just going to have to work alot untill after my exams. and maybe learn to make a better balance next year.