- Today was raining bad, and it’s gonna be the same tomorrow, however I went to a 3h drawing session and it felt so good to draw again!! Plus, since it was not sunny in the morning, I slept 2hours more than usual this morning! yeepee!
- I had a very nice dinner at home.. and for once it was not the usual things I’m used to cook. :)
- tried out a new place for pain au chocolat, éclair aux chocolat, and other small cakes, they were good! (except for the macaron that was quite disappointing, but I was smart to buy one first to try instead of buying a dozen right away!) I took a St Lucy (no chocolate this time, exotic fruit) to go for tomorrow morning and it arrived in my fridge in a good enough shape :)
- went shopping, bought 2 small cheap things
- went to an awesome Spanish restaurant, it was pretty crowded but we could eat at the bar right away. My, it was SO flavorful. It was quite hard afterward to run to the theater .. and we arrived just RIGHT on time for the movie “tell no one” that was quite good! was fun :)
I am putting too much thoughts in bad things, auto criticism, sadness, longings .., as a result happy things haven’t enough room in my head.
I always feel the need to write about what is bothering me, and if I mention what makes me happy it will always be with a second cutting melancholic side like “this is so wonderful that it will stop soon..” Realizing that it can stop makes me realize how happy and blessed I am at a certain time, but it also makes me stop enjoying the present and anticipate the bad moment following a too happy one!
In the open I am very optimistic, smiling, and I realized only recently that inside I am definitely pessimistic.
I do enjoy the nice little things, a great deal actually, but they will have short effects on me, or will turn into melancholic ideas, and the not so nice ideas are the one persisting into my head!
So this goal is all about balancing good and bothering ideas in my head, and maybe have the nice things take over most of the time!! (see? being optimistic!!).
So, and starting right now ! , I will only mention nice things in this goal without any depressing underlying.
So far it’s finally not raining today =)
