be more positive

I realized that patience does pay off, and while things may not turn out exactly as you hope or happen as fast as you’d like, they can still work in your favor sometimes. I still wish things could happen faster for me. I’m trying to focus on the good part though. I’m such an idealist, that I have to remember the goal is to be happy, not to fit some vision of what I think happiness is.

to act carefree and confident and let that translate inward, instead of vice versa. It seems to be working okay. My mental attitude has been more positive, as I am not taking small things to heart so much and letting them get me down. I guess a big part of being positive for me is to not be so high strung and also to view myself in a better light.
If I feel better about myself and don’t distort every little thing, then it’s a lot easier to think positively.

I am having a hard time being positive in this situation, as people always ask about things in your life like your job or friends.
My current circumstances are not to my liking, so I have trouble talking about these things in a positive light, and I am afraid honesty may come off as too negative or intense even.
I don’t want to talk about the town I live in & hate, the job I work at & hate, the few friends I have and feel lukewarm towards, the parents I still live with that drive me crazy….
Maybe I am just too hard on myself, but lately I feel like such a loser…nothing has gone the way I planned & it’s painfully evident when someone is trying to get to know me & I start talking about my life…

Some efforts have finally paid off, but things could easily fall into a rut again. I think my attitude is better too. I am feeling good about myself as a person at the moment, and just hoping that will translate into my life situation. Some hope is restored.
Right now I need to focus more on what is important to me in the long run & not let vain things distract me or I may not keep my positive outlook. Things can turn ugly quickly.
I definitely believe that I am in control of my own life though, so I need to remember that my choices & attitude are what’s going to shape my life. Maybe good things do happen to good people afterall….I just have to stay good :)

until someone said something that made me remember the realities of my life & how nothing has improved or changed much in years, despite my honest efforts.
I’m exhausted now and have no energy left to be positive.
When God, WHEN?!!!!

when everything starts going wrong again. My laptop broke & will cost $$$ to repair. It’s horrible, horrible timing….it couldn’t have waited a few more months?
I wonder if things turned around for me in my life if I would still see only the negative. I don’t think that would be the case, but I think I’ll work on focusing on the positives now,just to be sure…
Back to my list of 100 things that make me happy…surely I can think of more than 10…..I’m thinking really hard…

I have this picture of what my life should be, and it always falls short. Everything falls short….now I’ve gotten very down & become very negative, because time & time again nothing goes my way. I try & think about the positives in my life, cuz there are positives, but for some reason they have less value to me because I am so focused on the things I am trying to achieve that are not going so well for me. I’m starting to feel like all is hopeless, but that attitude is not likely to help my cause, so I really need to get a more positive outlook on life…

“Good times for a change
See, the luck I’ve had
Could make a good man turn bad

So please, please, please
Let me get what I want
This time.

Haven’t had a dream in a long time
See, the life I’ve had
Could make a good man bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time.”