Have a totally different life by this time next year

It is so depressing to say…
I have lost everything I had built since college.

I gave up my job & now have to give up my business.
I’ve drained my savings to support this business.
I’ve lost my apartment because I cannot afford it now.
I’ve lost my independence, as I will return to my parents and be dependent upon them until I can get a new job.
I’ve lost or grown away from several friendships as my focus on my business took so much of my time.
I’ve lost any sense of self worth, pride, confidence etc.
I’ve lost whatever shred of faith/trust I had in my fellow human.

My life is different from last year in that last year was full of hope & promise, and this year is just a series of dashed dreams…

Last year I moved out on my own, this year I quit my soul-sucking job and started my own design biz, and I’m hoping that before the year is over I may have some luck in the romance department also. If that works out, I can truly say my life has done a 180.

My life is different….but not totally. I live somewhere else, but the essence of my daily life is the same. I cannot honestly mark this done, and that is a disappointment…..

I moved…not far away, but just far enough. I’m on my own and have a few ideas on how to make new friends here.
Not a totally different life, but it’s small steps…

and despite a lot of effort on my part – NOTHING has really changed. I’ve even come close….so close…only to be disappointed yet again.

that something significant would happen in my life, but nothing did.
I made effort too. I stuck my neck out on job interviews, dates, calling strangers, looking for opportunities to leave this town, and so much more.
Nothing has changed. Nothing at all. It is so depressing. I wonder how long it can go on like this….it’s not like I’m not trying.
If nothing changes next year, at least one major change, I don’t know what I’ll do…