be relentlessly optimistic

God,

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you for all the unconditional love you have shown my through my grand parents, my great grand ma, my parents, my kitty, my adopted grand pa, and all my friends!

God, I trust that it is you who want me to be joyful in my heart, no matter what happens, no matter where I am. Why should I be feeling down when God has given me her forever love and peace? Why should I bury this joy in my heart?
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Life is so full of challenges. It just seems that I cannot get it all in control. So I just decided to hand over all those things I cannot control, and focus on what I can control – my own emotions.

And I can choose to be happy!

I have been way too serious for too long. I need to laugh more. Life has its serious side. Life also has its funny side. I want to see the funny side more to maintain a balanced heart.

I decided to do a little bit of hip hop when walking down the hallway and nobody’s there to find out. Look, I’m a middle aged Asian lady. It would be totally out of character, but I enjoyed it ;)

Do I really need a reason to laugh? Can I just change my perspective to see the funny side of life? I recall little kids can do that. They find things funny and giggle when adults cannot. Can I be a little kid again?

It’s hard. When I am truly happy, a lot of unhappy people will lash out at me and attack me. They are much happier when I seem to be unhappy. I almost had to act depressed to maintain peace.