be more social

It’s no one’s fault but my own, but I’m feeling a little lonely at the moment. Not sure why, though I think me being introverted and fear of embarrassment has something to do with it. That and socializing actually makes me tired.

It’s not that I have a lack of friends, I just have a lack of energy to ask friends out to activities, feeling comfortable enough to socialize with acquaintances. It may also have to do with the stubborn idea I have that I’m not as much fun to be around as more outgoing people, so I hesitate and miss opportunities to hang out with other people…or maybe I’m just lazy :P

Whatever it is, something is holding me back. I’m no way desperate or depressed. Just a little lonely. In the meantime I’ll play a little Aion till my fiance gets back.

That going out with friends is fun. Nothing big, we went to a small sandwich place and got a little bit to eat, talked, joked around, went to see a fun comedy show, then came back to the apartment and watched funny youtube videos until we got tired.

As exhausting as it can be sometimes, they make for some really good times :)

At work my boyfriend invited me to play street fighter while waiting for the dinner line to go down. I’m not very good at, atualy all in comparrison to the guys playing, but it was a lot of fun being able to play, even though I never won. I liked that for the most part the guys didn’t take it easy on me, though would try to be helpful since I’m still very inexperienced at it.
I’m still worried about bringing their fun down, but I didn’t get that impression this time.

In some ways I have more in common with my guys friends at work than my girlfriends outside of work, so I was happy to be able to play instead of sitting at my desk during lunch, even if I didn’t say much.