move to seattle

I’m not giving this one up. I do really want to live in Seattle. However, the more I read on ADHD, the more I believe that DC needs to be the next home. I can do all the same jobs there and I’ll have friends, especially AK who is a true coach for me in this ADHD business. Yes, I can probably succeed overtime in Seattle and make friends and find what I need for my ADHD, but at what cost? I have made huge strides with this recently because I’ve had a support network. I want to keep making strides, healing and growing, and that means a continued support network. That means DC.

So I will instead look for jobs with the Gates Foundation and Planned Parenthood which will easily transfer to Seattle in a few years.

Both Planned Parenthood and the Gates Foundation have offices in DC and Seattle which means I could start in DC and move to Seattle later with contacts, connections and experience. All this makes me feel a little more positive about going to DC first…

Recently I’ve been struggling with my decision to move to Seattle. I’ve never been there and I know no one there. However, I have very strong emotions telling me I should go there despite this. The conflict is coming from the changes in my relationship with Mk, the traveling I’ve done alone and the dinners I’ve shared with friends. If I go to Seattle in January, I will be lonely for a while. I will have to find a home and job immediately. There won’t be anyone there to help or lean on. DC would give me all the support I need plus dinner and weekend brunches with friends, the ability to explore a relationship with Mk, to be able to take my time finding a job and a home.

Yet, I still have reservations about going that way. I think the gist of it that I’m afraid if I don’t go to Seattle now, I won’t ever make it there. And I don’t know if that’s good or bad.

This last week has given me a different perspective on the move. I grow weary of traveling on my own. Further, I’m struggling getting by here with the friends I have (three really good ones now). I’m rethinking the choice of Seattle over DC now because of the three really good friends I already have in DC. The loneliness is starting to overwhelm and the real question becomes: where will I be the least lonely?

I told Mk that there is wiggle room here. If he’s open to certain things I need in my life, I might swap Seattle for city of choice #2 so that we can pursue a relationship. I don’t know what’s with me… I think I just need to swear off relationships, but then again, it’s my primary focus in my life: family first, kids and a partner to share that with. Then everything else. Sigh, but so many buts. And so few objections to city #2. Ah well, I have 5 months or more before this decision gets written in stone and everything will work out for the best of all involved.

Tomorrow night, I have set aside for writing my résumés. I’ve been slow to get this awaiting the new computer and putting other work commitments first. However, I’ve started shifting gears with less a month of real work left and then 50 days of travel in Asia, sorting my life into boxes and ending my employment here. So, yes, it’s currently very important I start thinking about January 2013. (Unless the Mayans have it right…)

I’m thinking of going to Seattle in September and buying a house. Am I crazy? I don’t even have a job there.

This weekend I got online and started looking at the Seattle housing market. I was excited to find things within my price range, in Seattle proper and actually appealing. They were all with in a short drive of the Seattle Planned Parenthood and the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation Headquarters.

I’m going to start looking for a realtor while I’m still employed. Perhaps I’ll have a place to move to in a couple of months :)

is awesome. I believe that airports tell you a lot about the character of a city and I’m very pleased with how this airport is. Wish I could spend more than 2 hours here.

S thought this is my dream. He’s incredibly respectful and admitted he’s hesitant about officially dating me because he won’t be in Seattle and doesn’t want to keep me from doing the things I dream of. Wow. Sweet. Caring. Respectful. Perhaps the best news is this isn’t my dream, just part of the plan.