stop eating so much

I must say that I have completed this goal…I’m wondering now why I even made the goal in the first place? My eating habits were in need of being slowed. The pace at which I was consuming-I would have eaten my family out of a home!

it’s just a theory, now, but i’ll see if works. all right. i have this idea that the reason i consume so much food is because my addiction to cigarettes, so perhaps there is a region in the brain the controls this habit. i think i eat a lot because i know, right afterwards i’m going to smoke a cigarette. it’s like i’m giving myself an excuse to smoke and eat so much. i am giving myself another shot at quitting. usually i just wait until the pack is done and then i say “i quit”, but this time was different. oh yes. i had a few cigarettes left. i crushed the pack and tossed it. excessive eating and smoking had become a routine for me. similar to washing your hair when you’re in the shower…you just do it. you don’t think about it. it’s impulsive behavior. habits. i’ll record my progress. wish me luck, everyone!

I’m setting goals! That way I can make myself more conciously aware of the positive and negative impacts my actions have on attaining my goals.

oh boy! i read a lot on psychological theory. one theory implies that a when an infant cries, it doesn’t know what it’s crying for it just knows it wants something it’s not getting. it’s the natural human desire. some people want so much, but aren’t conciously aware of what it is they want, so we translate the desire and obtain through accessibility and options. interesting stuff. at any rate, i’m a hog. i eat and eat and eat all day and all night. i never actually eat a full meal though, it’s usually only snacking, but, of course in excess. i don’t even have to be hungry to eat! if i want to taste something and we have it i’ll eat it. i didn’t even eat as much when i got stoned, in fact…i think ate less. perhaps i’m unconciously desiring marijuana, but since it’s not accessible i just automatically get the munchies lol.