look after myself

Today I have been on a jog/walk again and feel much more alive.

I was reading thought my list on 43 things, the goals I want to achieve and pretty much everyone has got somnething to do with this. Some are more clearly linked then others.

I have a health realated goals:
– drinking 2 liters of water a day,
– eating 5 portions of fruit and veg,
– walking for 20 mins a day,
– eating less sugar

Self esteem goals
– volunteering
– good degree
– being good LCP
– being grateful
– being brave

Quality of Life
– family + friends
– saving money
– stop bitching + swearing

Etc etc,

So i kind of feel by completing and actively working on them I am working on this goal as a whole. Though I have plenty of things to do before I fully complete this goal.

I have been going to fitnes classes with a friend, am really enjoying them, normally they are quite entertaining in themselves but i find them stress busting, and make u feel really good after. Plus they halep me sleep. Tomorrow I am going to total body conditioning, otherwise known as the most painful class known to man lol.

Well ive done all my healthy steps today, done my walking, fruit eating and water drinking but just looked at my transcript and its awful. Completely didnt realise they would put my failed degree up first, its like the first thing u see, going to look well good giving that to any possible employer. Oh the joys. Was horrid seeing it again havent thought about it for a while now and noit sure i wanted reminding. Feel abit sick thinking about me revising this time last year and all those emotions. Was a terrible 6 months, prob worse then when my dad ill, which is just so wrong.

I want to learn from it and move away and I have deffo learnt from it. Dont need to see it tho right in frount of my face. Dont need reminding of all those emations tho, how it felt yuk.

Changing the subject fast …..

well today i went to me needs assesement, its all part of my look after myself thing getting the help I need. Went really well and am excited about getting ym new equipment, will hopefully make things that bit easier.

I am determined to look after myself properly, thats my mental and physical health and well being. I need to look after myself to ensure my own happiness and abilty to do the things which make me happy. That sounds wierd but if I have not looked after myself how will I be able to look after the others I care about.