I desperatly need to get out of my appartment and DO something, I don’t care what or where or with who.. as long as I’m not rotting all alone here anymore.
Seeing as the thought of getting a job, applying for a real course in Uni (hell, even the thought of researching about a real Uni course) is too overwhelming.. I thought I could start with a part time free art class kind of thing.. for the sake of meeting people and having a purpose.
I’m so mentally exhausted from depression/isolation/anxiety that even just the thought of researching about it brings this sort of psychological nausea in me.. so I avoit it. Cause in a way, this simple step involves me having to face the mess my life is.. this is what’s stopping me.
So, I guess this is where I need to start.. my first step is plucking up the courage to research about it. Sounds pathetic? I know.