love myself

I can already feel that laying off all other goals and committing myself to this one goal was a good thing. I feel better and something like sympathy towards myself. Can’t remember that I ever felt this before. It’s amazing, because it has an impact on everything I do… Maybe by cutting away the other stuff I showed myself that I do care about me. I don’t know :) It’s been just a few days now so it’s too early to tell how this will develop. I’m just happy that I made a change here. It was long overdue…

Today I removed all my goals from 43things except this one. I realized that all the other goals have to wait and that this goal is just too important to miss any attention any other goal might draw.

All those goals and ambitions are a burden for me, because I keep pushing myself and I’m never satisfied (‘still not good enough’). There is no end and it’s not the first time that I find myself losing all happiness. I achieved so many things, but my weird view of myself robs me off all credit by finding all kinds of reasons why it might have been luck or others that did the job.

I don’t want any more days of pushing myself. And I want to be able to look into a mirror and be okay or feel good about me. I need this healthy foundation to enjoy life.