Has taken me 3 years to get to this point...
3 months ago
I dont think its just down to me being unable to control being ‘depressed’ I think that I need to take my life into my own hands and get on with things. I must accept that my life isnt perfect, and even though I lack the motivation to help myself, ultimatly its ME who has to push through it. Ive been on and off feeling like ending it, panicking, crying, laying in bed for months at a time. And as I feel positive right now, im going to be done with this goal. I am not depressed, and even if I am, it doesnt matter. I dont have to feel any emotions that I dont want to feel. So im not going to.
