“Have a kick ass body that stops traffic without jumping in front of it”

I was standing at the register with my husband while he was paying for our dinner. Our oldest son has hurt his knee terribly and we had just left urgent care after spending 6, yes that’s right 6 hours waiting and then waiting for him to be x-rayed. Our son may need surgery. Perhaps not. But it was a very long day. A woman I used to be in a prayer group with was sitting at one of the tables at the restaurant with her family. She didn’t recognize me at first and was so surprised by my appearance. “You look so cute”. I soooo didn’t feel cute. I felt tired and drained and so worried. It kind of makes me wonder what I used to look like. I’ll take the compliment and enjoy it. I know there is still lots of work to do, but I must be doing well. It feels good.

BUT…I am really enjoying putting on clothes that have been in my closet and having skirts fall down around my hips. I have a new waist and my pearl bracelet slips over my hand and on to my wrist without undoing the clasp. Yes…this just may be possible.

You know the ones we leave in our closets for “just in case”. I took them all to Good Will. There’s no going back now. I’m not going to give myself an out.

I have been working out with my Belly Dancing for Wimps DVD. My sons laugh their asses off. Go away children. I’m finding my inner goddess.

My chiropractor told my son that I no longer look like my old self, but that I look more like a sexy sister of myself. Humm! Nice!

A women stopped at our table at lunch on Tuesday to admire my daughter’s red hair. We told her that her daughter’s hair was the same color. The woman asked how I liked being the Auntie. I told her I was the Grandma. She was stunned.

This is good news. I like it. It validates the hard work I have been doing and gives me confidence to continue on this path.

I want this. It has been a very long time. I have done it in the past. This precious body was amazing a long time ago. I can do this. I will do this.