improve my social support networks.

I would like to try and re-connect with my friend Neola and also my friend Leah. Well I’m not sure about Leah… but maybe. I don’t know.

Neola is having a party in May… she hasn’t actually invited me… but maybe she would. if I talked to her more. or called her on the phone.

she never calls me on the phone but once in a while I can get through if I text message her. that is the best way to reach her.

she was a close friend in high school.

I have lost contact with all of my high school friends… except they are on facebook but I don’t talk to them at all… it’s sad.

but at the same time I want to manage my life so I don’t get overwhelmed and tired and over-socialized and go into hypomanic.

I’m planning on having a small birthday lunch at a restaurant for my birthday this year. it will be easy for me because I won’t have to prepare my house or host anything, but fun because i’ll get to see a group of my friends and celebrate my birthday. i’ll create an event on facebook.

Happy International Women’s Day 43things!!!! :)

I would like to have friends who come over for dinner parties. Or maybe a game night.

I went to my regular tai chi but made a big effort to talk to more people afterwards. i have been trying to make plans with people and just in general to be more outgoing.

i haven’t really made any new friends yet… but at least talking to more people when i go to classes i feel more connected and more like a “social animal”

we evolved from monkeys and from tribes and we need to feel connected to a group and like we belong.

the team in training people are meeting for a hike saturday morning. i am thinking about going… but it is far away and I usually go to tai chi saturday mornings. i don’t like to commute.

however i do want to make new friends.

it’s just that it’s hard to make new friends in one outing and if i have to drive that far for each hike i don’t think it will be worth it.

I would like to make more friends who I hang out with during the day but I am sooo sick of meeting people from craigslist. I keep trying meet women who I could go for walks with and it never works out, and I keep trying to go on online dates and it never works out… it’s really frustrating. And stressful.

I could ask somebody from my yoga studio if she wants to go for a walk with me… There is somebody there who actually lives on my street. And she seems pretty nice. I just don’t want to deal with her saying no, I go to a lot of classes there and I don’t want it to be awkward.

I don’t want to keep trying to do “online dating” or whatever though… or maybe I should. I don’t know. Maybe I should just try to get a little closer to this woman who lives on my street. She said it is just temporary because she is renting though.

Maybe I just need to be a little more flexible. I don’t know. I feel like I really should stop trying to meet people on the internet, but on the other hand it is really hard to meet people. And maybe I shouldn’t be so critical of the people I do meet, i.e. spend time with them even if they aren’t exactly what I’m looking for.

I want to sing “heading in the right direction” by india arie at valerie’s party for karaoke.

http://www.apoetscorner.com/poems/friends/afriendunseen.jpg/

well i am planning on going to yoga this morning… and to palomar tonight at 7:30… it would be nice to be able to go on a walk with someone… or frisbee golf.

or shoot. i almost forgot i have an appt with my mom and terry this afternoon! so that is improving my social networks right there just have to remember to go to it! and be on time!