be happy with who I am

I’m more relaxed about myself. I dress the way I want, I talk the way I want, I like who I like, I listen to the music I listen to. And although my family criticizes me because of that I really don’t care anymore because I enjoy being me. But thats not all, I need to be happy with my physical before I can cross this goal off the list.

Yesterday when I went to the mall by myself I thought it would be awkward and embarrassing but i had fun shopping! And getting a manicure and pedicure and just spending some “me” time. I didn’t feel self-conscious I just felt good being me. It was nice :)

I love being me. 90% of the time. I love my personality, The things that I like, The music I listen to, My friends. But there is just SOMETHING. And maybe its my weight but im working on that. In fact, Thats not even an issue anymore, So I still need to find out whats holding me back from fully being happy with who I am..

I have been alot more confident these days. Mainly due to the 40 pounds Ive lost. I constantly look in the mirror (bad habit) and smile at what i see because Im becoming thinner, But not only my weight, I am trying new things and I just love being me right now. Everything is going great and I know that things will only get better. But im not all the way there yet.