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I remember seeing this in a movie and it was like wow..

“When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.” – Jimmi Hendrix

The movie I saw is called Zeitgeist. Its amazing and a real eye opener. If you all want to see a thought provoking film check out zeitgeistmovie.com, the movie is streamed there in its entirety for free. When the movie is over scroll to the bottom of the screen and click activism. I’m telling you, this movie will change your view of life..

I realize that my life revolves around sleep, whether I get enough sleep, if I just woke up from being asleep, if i feel sleepy, etc. I feel this cuz and say this cuz i usually never get enough sleep therefore I’m always sleepy or tired and drained. I act strangely when I’m sleepy or tired (which is always so therefore I always act strangely even though it isn’t me), like I’m not fully awake and my mind can’t process and react like it would if I were fully awake. I feel this times ten if I’m abruptly awoken…what the fux up????? Do I have like a super strange sleeping disorder? I just need some serious sleep. My life is demanding and needs me to be fully aware and awake. Its been really serious recently, it wasn’t this bad before…I dunno…wierdness…I sound like I’m on some serious LSD, lol.

Its so very strange to feel like you’re losing something but you’re not sure what it is exactly. Like you’re entering or leaving a phase in your life, maybe even possibly outgrowing people or things in your life….I have no idea what it is that I’m trying to say, but I feel like somethings changing but I’m not sure what…whatever… Maybe its the whole I’m young and as you get older you change thing…i dunno…lol, i find it funny that I outwardly admitted this…

Omg Omg Omg…I’m about to have a nervous breakdown and go into cardiac arrest all at once. I lost this incredibly important paper that I need to take to the financial aid office at my school before the first day of classes. If I don’t find it, I’ll have to pay for this semester’s classes and textbooks; I don’t have the money to pay for all of this so if I don’t find it, I’ll have to withdraw from school this semester. I’m an idiot for losing this incredibly important document; I’ve looked everywhere…I feel nervous and anxious all the time, since wednesday when I lost it. I dunno….

Cloudy, dismal, dreary.
I’m at a massive loss. It’s driving me insane, i feel as if I might loose my mind.
I’m in the middle, in the midst of it all, unfortunately.
I hope I’m not trying too hard, I’m just being sincere with an extra effort, which sux that I should have to push myself a bit.
I need to have an opportunity, the opportunity which will alleviate some tension.

I have faith…I’m hoping everything pans out.

Outstandingly chilled
Ooo French oozes from your lips
Your presence resonates

An almost-haiku for a certain someone. Tomorrow a chapter ends, but I’m psyched for what is to begin.

My possible travel plans are incredibly complicated, its driving me nuts, I want to get out of the city for a bit but I’m not sure what exactly to do. I have one too many options that might not even pull through and I’m losing hope. I’ll see what happens.