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I realize that my recent nightmares are related to the huge amount of stress I feel with my job. My ability to turn AAA into aaah has been really limited.

I thought about applying for a different ED position that’s open, but would that just be trading one set of stress for a different set?

Event is in two weeks
The election makes my stomach lurch regularly. The only thing that keeps my sanity is fivethirtyeight.com

a a a a a a a !!!!!

Waking up consistently at 12:30 or 1:30 or so, and then being awake for a couple hours, fretting.

I told my husband that the next time this happens I’m waking him up and making love. Then, I won’t be fretting. Or at least, if I continue to fret, at least I’m doing something productive with my time, instead of just tossing and turning in bed.

AAAA!

I have arrived, I am home, in the here, in the now

There’s two types:

There’s the AAAA like in the picture – a sort of yelling as you’re whizzing very fast past your level of competency to cope.

And then there’s an open chant of the sound of “aaaa” – the sound of the opening of the heart space.

This goal is to help remind me to continually move my AAAA into aaaa.