be more spiritual

but since connecting to nature is spiritual to me, I’ll do it here. Look up tonight people. Mars is looking large. I think that’s Mars anyway, but it’s appearing larger than it usually looks. At this size, it’s color is more apparent than ever. It’s the size of a large star and I can tell a significant difference in the color of it and a large star that’s out tonight. One is white and the other is yellowish-red. When they’re small, color is not as apparent. Anyway, it’s very pretty- so are the stars. Go see.

I don’t know how common this is, but I think of Medusa as a Goddess, and I rather like her. Not sure if she’s my favorite, but she’s definitely right up there. I have a prob. with a lot of Gods and Goddesses. I don’t mind them having faults and making human mistakes, but so many of them go too far, such as raping someone. I am not venerating anything that rapes, nor will I put its face on anything I am worshiping.

And what an odd dream. Can someone help me understand it?

some days I lose faith in everything- or most of it, anyway. :(

I think I am going to make a list of the top 10 questions I’d like to ask God, if given the opportunity. Besides a main list, I may also do a list of very serious questions as well as a list of just for fun somewhat silly questions.

I really should start meditating…..but there are so many forms of meditation. I’m not sure which one to choose or which would be most helpful. As I said in a comment to someone on this list, when I was younger stuff like this came more naturally and easily to me, but when I tried to consciously meditation a few years back I found that my very eyelids rebelled. When I tried to relax and close my eyes, they insisted on trying to jerk open and I had to struggle to keep them closed. So, my eyelids were basically closed, but somewhat opened and fluttering….or something to that effect. Anyway, I don’t seem to have this eyelid problem now, so I want to try again, but I’m not sure which form of meditation to try. Some meditation techniques want you to get everything out of your mind while others want you to concentrate and focus all of your attention on one thing- a mantra, a mandala, etc. Also, I have heard of TM or transcendental meditation, but I don’t know much about it. How is it different? Is it better?

when I was trying to figure out where I stood religiously, someone gave me the idea to make a list of my religious beliefs to help get a bigger picture of what I believed, even if it didn’t fit into a tight category or one particular religion. The thing is, even though I thought I knew my spiritual beliefs and I suppose I did, it still helped to get them all (well, a lot of them) written down/typed up in one place. It just made things clearer. I am thinking about picking back up on that.

is there a better way to pray? I mean, does it not matter how you pray or are some ways more effective at getting God’s attention?

people who dream of flying and lucid dreamers go hand in hand…..I’ve done both more than once. I think I also read these same people are more likely to astral project? I can’t recall for sure. Anyways, if that’s true, WOOHOO! Cause I want out of my body and anything saying my chances are increased is a good thing.

I feel like explaining at this moment all of the reasons I want this on my list, but I will say one reason I want it is because it encompasses several other goals I want on my list and it saves room to just use this larger goal for all of them.