stop masturbating

Almost caved today. Went for a walk, smoked a cigarette… I thought I was going to explode. ... one day at a time. That’s all we can do. And offer our urges and frustrations up to the Lord. There is no way I could have gone this far without Him … and the prayers of my brothers and sisters who struggle with me.

Did it. Now.. someone convince me to go another 40. I’m so ready to give in. God help me.

Wow. All I have to do is make it through the weekend and I’ve accomplished the first leg of my goal. I just want to thank all of you who have prayed for me. It worked. I, in turn, have been praying for all you men and women who strive for sobriety over this addiction.

It would have been easier to give up meat. This has been most difficult. But I try not to think about it. Thank God for cigarettes. Hey, whatever it takes. Just don’t give in.

God be with you all.

I set a goal for 40 days. Today is day 35. Time flies when you’re NOT JERKING OFF ALL THE TIME AND GETTING OUT THERE ENJOYING LIFE. I wish I could say it’s been an easy 35 days but I’d be lying. What I CAN say is over the last 18 years I haven’t stopped for more than 8 months. There are people who have stopped for over 3 years… so I KNOW that it’s possible. If you want something bad enough you’ll get it. ... and welcome to all you new people. Hope this site helps you like it’s helping me.

It’s been exactly 4 weeks and I haven’t gone insane. Praise the Lord. On Saturday it will be a month. When you get to this point the feeling of disappointment outweighs the feeling of pleasure I know I’ll have for a few seconds. Not worth it.

Here’s a tip: instead of focusing on NOT masterbating, focus on ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE. The Law of Attraction states that whatever you think about with all your desire will enevitably come to pass. So if you’re thinking about masterbating- you will. So don’t. (easier said than done, I know.. but it’s true and it works.)

I’m praying for all of us. Thanks to everyone else who’s praying, too.

I’m rapidly approaching the 4 week mark. I believe I can kick this. I believe we all can. You are all in my prayers.

I just realized that a few years ago I went 8 months without masterbating. That’s apox. 240 days. I managed because of 2 things: I didn’t have a computer where I could easily access internet porn and I had a life. My life consisted of a job I loved, friends who were constantly around me, a solid faith community which I ineracted with more than once a week and a love for the life I had. I loved my life. But things change. Everything is the opposite now- and now I struggle.

God bless us with good friends and a love for our life so strong that the thought of poisoning it with desctructive habbits evaporate with every sunrise. ... I hope this prayer works. I’m dying here. ;)

One more day and I will have hit the 3 week mark. How are you all doing?

I don’t remember where I heard this but it’s mine now: Whether you think you can or you think you can’t- you’re right.

You think you can beat this? You’re right! You think you will fall? You’re right!

I WANT to say: I think I am not a slave to my addictions. But if I do, I must back it up by my actions. So instead I will say: I think I am strong enough, by the Grace of God, to resist temptation. Every time. I think I know what to do with my time instead of succumbing to my physical urges which are a gift from God to be used in the context of my marriage to the one I love… when I find and marry her. In the mean time I offer them up to you, Lord, and lay my troubles at the foot of your cross.

Create in us a clean heart, o Lord, and renew a steadfast spirit within us.

Everyday is a battle. Everyday I want to look, to touch. Everyday I find an excuse to. Everyday I can justify my actions to myself. But everyday I don’t, I have won the battle. Everyday I resist I can sleep at ease knowing I have won. Everyday I hope I will win tomorrow. Everyday I look at my calender and watch my progress. And as I scrape and claw my way to my goals- I get closer. Everyday. (I took this pic on my cel phone)