Be less shy

It sucks that I’m not shy when I’m drunk. lol _
I guess if there’s one thing I can say for myself it’s that I talk to more people then I have before. I’m not quiet in a group anymore. I still can’t randomly walk up to strangers without substances in me. Kinda sad really, but at least I’m alot better then I was many moons ago.

I find that putting myself in a situation where I know people are nice is alot easier for me to approach people. I recently went to my first rave, and I found that everybody is so friendly and approachable. I want to do that again. I want to talk to whoever I want and make new friends. I’ve always been shy, but that’s because I’ve never known what to say to people. Now, I just decided that it’s easier to just ignor the people that don’t like me, or what I have to say. School starts soon too. I want to just talk to people, and not be afraid.

Ok…I’m starting to get more and more over my shyness. The best part is that I’m going to take cheerleading this semester and that should DEFINATELY get rid of that shy bug I can’t seem to get rid of all the way.
On a good note..Audrey had a party and I talked to the one person I didn’t know all that well.
I will continue my quest until I am able to talk to whoever I want without feeling weird and uncomfortable.

Last night was a great halloween party, and I talked to sooo many people. It was awesome. I still want to test this out when I don’t start the evening tipsy haha but yes..making great progess so far.

I’m not at the end of the tunnel, but let’s just say I’ve entered, and I’m looking for my way our.
A few weeks ago I was forced to be in a group of people I didn’t know accept for one person. We were all crammed in a car. I started our quiet..kinda. Then towards the end of the night. I had the whole entire car laughing and saying how funny I am. I was just being me, of course. I loved it.
I’m talking to more people in school too. I talked to this guy in my political science class, and I started talking to this girl as well. In class, I also speak my opinion. Which I never ever did before.
Another occassion where this man on the bus started talking to me, and we got into a whole conversation about politics and music and a lot of other stuff.
I’m discovering that I’m actually wanting to be around people more. There are a few occasions where I don’t enjoy the company.
I did just realize something while I logged on here to 43 things…
There are over 2,000 people who are shy. Sure, that’s not a whole lot of people, but I’m not the only shy person. Which must mean there are others like me in my surrounding, so if I just go out there and do MY thing, they will be more comfortable too. Which will make it easier for me in the long run.

The first week of school is the perfect time to start meeting new people. So far, many people have come up to me asking me what is where and how to do something. As a third year student I pretty much know what’s going on, so I was happy to help.
It made me feel good to help those people. In my psychology and math class I raised my hand and asked a question. Normally I don’t do that at all. I felt that having a question needed an answer.
I give myself a pat on the back. I’m not done with this goal by a long shot, but I’m starting out well.

The past 3 years I haven’t been a loner. In fact, I had a best friend that I spent alot of my time with, and while I was around her I fed off her popularity and her friends were my friends. Now, she and I are not best friends anymore. We’re still friends, but not BEST friends. I have nobody to feed off of.
So, this makes me angry. No, not having anybody to feed off of. But the fact that I had to go through my friend to get friends. I was ALWAYS shy around people I didn’t know. Before I met my friend, I spent my summers in the house the whole time…just as I am doing now. Of course I still have a few friends, but I want more.
It’s not greed, but for once I’d like to make friends that are from my own efforts. Plus I’d like to make a connection with somebody new.
Now, my only problem is I’M SO SHY!!! I know why I’m shy, but I just wish I could get over it. In the deep depths of my mind I actually care what people think. I just want to be friends with people that like me for me.
So, school starts August 18 for me, and my goal is to start then. It shall be done.