lose weight

So is laziness. _ I really wish I could get the motivation to work out three times a week, but every time I come home from school I get tired. Lame, I know, but yeah. Plus, I get bored and I eat food. Grah!
I’ve been trying to eat healthier, though. I bought wheat bread if that counts for anything.

So, usually I fail at losing weight. Lately, I’ve been working out and eating less. It’s been working pretty good. To keep me level headed, I’ve been going to the National Body Challenge forum on Discoveryhealth.com and been getting advice. It’s been very helpful. I’m hoping to lose most of my weight by the end of this year. We’ll see. Hope it goes well.

I’m hiding my Starburst bag from now on. I’ve managed to eat like ten Starburst right now. That may not be alot to you, but it’s 2AM and I just ate. That’s not good.
However I am starting to eat fruit. I had some watermelon today and yesterday. Tastey!!! I loved it. Yum. Anywho, I need to start going for some walks. I joined the National Body Challenge, and i intend on doing it. :D Yay!

Well, now I don’t have time for excuses. I’ve been putting off running, because I didn’t have any proper workout clothes. Now, I can’t say I can’t work out because I don’t have time, because I have to practice waking up earlier anyway and jogging will do that perfectly. Now, I can’t say I’m too tired, because I signed up for a cheerleading class at school. I NEED four classes to be full time, so I have to stick it out.
I have absolutely NO loopholes. This is a beautiful thing.

I keep making excuses for myself. It’s irritating. I have to gain some self-discimpline and do this for real. I guess I’ve gotten so lazy. But I really want to be able to look good in a bathing suit next summer. Plus, diabetes and heart disease run in my family. I think if I keep thinking about that it should give me more of a motivation.

I looked at myself in a full length mirror today. I didn’t like it one bit. It’s way better than how much I used to weigh though. I used to be 200 pounds. Now. I’m 158, which is a BIG difference. I want to lose weight until I am 130. That seems to be the ideal weight to me. I just need motivation to help myself to lose more weight. I don’t have enough motivation to go for a run around the block or do workouts with my weights. I realized that I’m not confident enough in my current body to be confident mentally.