get over food obsession/insecurity.

I’ve been running a lot this past week and now I feel like I have a right to eat! It’s so nice. Hehe.

Even I find it weird that I have such obnoxious food issues. I believe I’ve pinpointed the root source of the issue, but even still, when I am put into a similar situation, I revert straight back to my unhealthy ways.
My brother is a douchebag. Plain and simple. Along with being a douchebag, he is naturally skinny regardless of all the junk he eats. So anything delicious in our house would quickly be devoured by him. If you saw some food that you wanted, you’d better eat it right then and there else it’ll probably be gone by the time you get back.
A lot of overweight people say that food comforts them and consoles them. With all the instability and misery in my life growing up, I needed something like that to be there for me. And it was. Until my brother ate it. So not only did I turn to food for comfort, but I ate it compulsively as well.
I should make “learn how to explain things better” my next goal.

Also, as part of this, I want to be able to turn down free food/resist temptations/learn to be okay without eating everything i possibly can.

I turned down a piece of birthday cake today at work. Go me.