i fell so hard and didn't even know it until it was too late — 8 months ago
She was a friend, we just clicked. Spent as much of our free time together and the nicest part of the day was getting a lift to work together. Jut to sit side by side in the car, made me so happy. Talked about everthing, our current relationships which were not doing well. I decided to end my relationship – for all the right reasons – it was dead. And she decided to do the same a little later. And somewhere in the middle of it all we worked out we were in love with each other, which made things really hard.
We had so many good times, she healed me and i remembered what love was all about. I thought there must be a reason we found each other at such a critical time. I couldn’t give her up, loved her so much and our paths seemed to just keep bringing us back together even when we would try and part. And what could i do? I fell in love so hard, she got under my skin, i didn’t know until it was too late.
But then after breaking up with her ex, and leaving, she went back. Broke my heart, absolutely shattered me.
Found out the hard way that even when love is real, not everybody values it. It was real for us, but she was not prepared to make the big changes in her life to honour our love, to be with me. So she has gone back to her home and family, and her partner? I don’t think there’s any real love there, but there is the warmth of family and family connections. Which is a kind of love i guess.
Now i want to fall in love for real again – but this time i hope my heart picks somebody who is prepared to do something about it. Give me strength to trust again.
