be more independent

So yesterday I went to the gym all by myself. I love my gym, I always go with friends to either dance or do something else.

Yep… I always go with my friends. Always. I remember this one time I went all by myself cos my friends called me when I was already there and said they either couldnt make it or had become sick.

But today I did both core and spinning ALL BY MYSELF! I’ve also made up my economy about my buspass. Lucky for me I get it 200 kr cheaper cos Im 19. So I only have to pay 420 kr a month. I can handle that.

(when I was in school it gave us a buspass if we had more than 6 km to school. Well, let’s just said I had much longer than that so I’ve never had to pay for my buspass before)

I’ve done a very nice budget over my economy and planned very rough how i can live now before I go to USA. I also work to earn my own money.

But what does independent mean? When will this goal be done? After or before USA…

To be honest, I guess it would be after when my independency really is put to the test.
(when I was in school it gave us a buspass if we had more than 6 km to school. Well, let’s just said I had much longer than that so I’ve never had to pay for my buspass before)

When I say be more independent I dont really know what I mean. Do I mean i need to stop asking my friends to come with me wherever I go, eat by myself, go to the gym by myself? There’s a fine line between not handling those things by yourself and to just do everything by yourself.

I wanna feel that if I planned to go to the gym with two friends and if both get sick, i go anyway. That kind of independency. Not just that, financially.

You see, I will go to USA and earn money every week for taking care of a random family’s children. My parents will not be there to help me. It’s my economy only and I can spend it on whatever i want. BUT as it is now, my parents help with all hard things and they wont be able to do so when I’m away. So before I go I need to make a budget. I need to see exactly what I have and how i spend it.

An other way of being independent is to welcome changings. Being in USA for a year will be “no more mummy and daddy” (not that I say that but still they do have a big part of my life still, I live at home, im 18 duuh, and i go to school). The minute I graduate my real life will begin and I must welcome that. I must.

I wanna be independent.
Wish me luck