move to California

Okay i am going to need more encouragment. I think the more serious i get about this by starting to save and just for California (limited my bar outings, dont spent anymore money on sweet sweet grass that i miss so much, dont get my starbucks vanilla late before class/work every morning etc…) I wrote down a plan, how long it might take me to reach this goal, how much money i want to have before i make this adventure, i got in contact with the one person i know that lives in california, looked up rooms for rent, plane ticket costs) The more research I do, the more i think about it…the more scared i am becoming. What about my family? My mom and dad are getting old, my brothers married and has a boy, a girl is on the way in 2 weeks, am i being selfish?? Should I finish school out here??? I want to do this, and think if i dont now, i never ever ever will..i will just have more responsiblities as the years go by, probably end up getting a job and afraid to leave that…this is driving me crazy.

I want to move to California. I hate living with my parents, I hate winter, I love California’s laid back style. I want that life. I dont care if i have no one to back me up, no one to go with, know no one once im there..nothing can be as bad as living the life i have now. Its a gut feeling really that i think life will be better out there, and im willing to go based just on that. Im saving up starting now =)